i acted in 4.48 two months ago. for me, it was an intensely liberating experience, both as an actor (not having to adhere to a "character," being able to open myself up and forgetting stupid stage inhibitions) and as a person (because it made me understand and then want to share aspects of myself with other people)
i also 'nearly died' a year ago. at the time i was rehearsing 4.48 psychosis. a few weeks later another member of the cast attempted suicide. my mother has always been convinced it was to do with the involvement in the play. 4.48 has always been a great comfort to me because i have identified with it strongly. But in fact, reading Kane’s plays now, I find that there is a great belief in life, in humanity’s strengths as well as weaknesses. People’s capacity to love & to have compassion are pointed out in little glimmers in the plays. I think that identifying with 4.48 helped me, rather than hurt me. & now, in a better state of mind, I can identify with the bits f hope that appear. Even in psychosis, tho they are harder to find. I hope you can find them too xxx
i don't like anything, i almost died 3/4 months ago. i discovered 4.48 psychosis in a library and still didn't returned it, read all her work. and it felt so good to find some characters i'm close to. wondering if that happened to you too. (sorry poor english)