i also 'nearly died' a year ago. at the time i was rehearsing 4.48 psychosis. a few weeks later another member of the cast attempted suicide. my mother has always been convinced it was to do with the involvement in the play. 4.48 has always been a great comfort to me because i have identified with it strongly. But in fact, reading Kane’s plays now, I find that there is a great belief in life, in humanity’s strengths as well as weaknesses. People’s capacity to love & to have compassion are pointed out in little glimmers in the plays. I think that identifying with 4.48 helped me, rather than hurt me. & now, in a better state of mind, I can identify with the bits f hope that appear. Even in psychosis, tho they are harder to find. I hope you can find them too xxx
Archive 19-4-2003
