Earlier in the play she says " and I go out at six in the morning and start my search for you. (..) and I wait for you." I think she perhaps wants to say that there is only this little time , when she "feels" herself , and when she is okay with herself, she also says "I am here I can see myself" , even if this might be a very dark and desillusioned situation for her. She can bear it because she is " touching her essential self". When she goes out afterwards ,she´s getting weak again, searching for love , etc.. that´s just how I imagine the situation.. Marie
Archive 12-11-2001