So, I'm 24 (25) , I heard about Sarah when I was 19, in drama class. I fell in love with her from the start and after that, I've been falling more and more. I have experienced severe abuse, including sexual, as a child, I really feel I'm breaking apart and I am trying to see through all those pieces and understand myself and somehow, be able to tell what I feel and what I've seen so... More and more I try to speak about my pain and violence and trauma and heartbreak, Sarah becomes more and more important because her plays are so true in attempting that and just, she touches my soul very much and my heart. And I can not describe, since I've known her how sad her story makes me. It is contradictory, because I want her to be at peace and at the same time I want her to be alive but in a better world where she can be without pain. And I can do nothing about it- black telephones off at the root. This makes me cry so much, at the same time because I see so much similarity of mine to her and also, because I just, simply, not egocentrically, care about her and feel and know she is gone but still, her plays make her horribly alive in my heart, more alive than everybody I know probably... Because nobody has touched me there. The plays speak very loudly.
So this is it, big feeling, kinda hard to carry without expression.
I know many people respect and love her, I remember giving her plays to my friend and him being shocked. And she writes so sincerely, it is like that, it touches you to the core. How do you cope with sadness? What do you feel? I don't think she's anywhere but if she is, I hope it is peace and kind. <3 I love you, Sarah. <3
